Another Mission Encounter to come..yeah!!

It's exactly one month and a day before i enbark on my 6th mission trip..yeah...and this year, its to the beauty land of thailand. Yeah...can't wait for the exams to be over by friday, n looking forward to going back to Singapore n go on the mission trip.

I personally think that this year wld be another great year, seeing the power of God jus change the people of Thailand. The last time we went, the experience was awesome...seeing God the same in Australia, Singapore and even Thailand really reminds you of how God is a MIGHTY GOD!

Will keep you guys updated...it will be really exciting. In the meantime, gtg back n study. thREE more exams...haiyah...but got to do it. Ciao.

PaSsiONz...

I've got heaps...which to persue? Can i do all in a lifetime? But i want to. How do i know which one is more important? Man...if only time was on my side.

How do i know that these passions...these desires are from God? I mean they are all really good dreams and desires...which will give me a chance to draw closer to God and glorify His name. Does it really matter which one is more important? I mean as long as i am glorifying His name, it should be alright rite? Rite?

SOmetimes i just wish i could turn back time and do things rite from the start. Watched "Tru Calling" the american tv series staring Eliza Dushku (she's cool)? Everyday, she has the opporunity to go back one day and solve a crime...make things rite. How i wish i was able to do that. But i guess that will come with more responsibilities huh!

Hmmm...well got to make the most of my time then. What abt you, are you making the most of your time, doing what you love, doing what really makes you fired up, all passionate? Think about it...

Fulfilling His Purpose...with or without you...its that Simple!

Last nite was the last Young Adult's Encounter nite for 2005. How great was God last nite. I tot it was an awesome nite...not becoz i was finally part of the worship team...but becoz I've never heard Clayton speak so passionately about us BEING THE CHURCH! Clayton's message really made me think hard about a few questions:

(1) Why am i doing what i'm doing?
Currently, i'm studying...Arts Degree (majoring in psychology and management). Ok..so, why? Well...becoz i am interested in those fields of study. Becoz i know my parents are happy that i'm making use of the time i have. Becoz i know this will help me get a good career in the future. Becoz i know this cld be a fall-back plan if for some reason i am not able to do what i'm passionate about...and that is to wor full-time for God.

I'm also a leader in the church...for which ministry..who cares...as long as i'm serving God its all good. Hehe!! Why lead? Well...i know that one of my desires is to be around God's people...and be an influence to them to live a better life for God. I want to see lives change becoz of a better undesrstanding and revelation of God. I want to be someone that God uses to bring heaven down to earth. I want to people around me to experience God when they have a conversation with me, when they hear me sing, when they hear my testimonies, when they see me act and behave. I want them to say..."that is so what God would do". How cool is that if every Christian were to have that desire...the world would then be a better place to live in. Hehe!!

(2) Are you grabbing every opportunity God has given to you?
Hmmm....i dun noe? Tough question this one...becoz sometimes, i'm not sure if i actually recognise something as an opporuntity from God? My definition is this: An opporunitity is something that allows me to use whatever i've got (gifts, talents, abilities) to contribute to the Kingdom of God and have a chance to glorify God.

So i guess...still guessing...hehe! I dunnoe. I am learning. Its hard becoz self-doubt and inadequacy comes into play. Often you look ard you and see people better than you and you question: how can God use me to do this...he/she is so much better than me? There will be people better than you. You will never be the best at everything. I guess, its not the end product that God is looking at...it is the attitude...the willingness of heart that God sees. I keep reminding myself that.

Clayton was saying about how if we do not grab the opportunities that God has placed in our hands, he will just find someone else who would. I think we need to start BEING THE CHURCH.. many times people complain about how some things are not what they expect in the church and therefore they stop being involve with it...well if that's the case, then instead of complaining BE THE CHURCH...and start changing what you dislike about it.

Clayton also mentioned about how we should not only appreciate and respect what we the previous church has done so that we may be where we are today...but more importantly...we should BUILD ON what we have...be more desperate for God, expecting more that God has to offer to his people...claim more promises...see more miracles happen in the church. We are here for a reason..let's be all that God wants us to be and bring heaven down to earth! What do you think...

One DoWN tHreE 2 gO...

Hmm...just finished my first exam, organisational psychology. ALrightz i guess...can't wait to get it over and done with...e exams i mean. By next week, i shld be finish. Yeah!! Then i can really start spending my time wisely...

But aren't i spending my time wisely already? Isn't studying something tt is considered as time well spent? Should be rite...afterall God has called me to be the best student ever. Errmmm...i wouldn't say i have been the best student though...not attending all the lectures...skipping one or two tutes. But i do my best. Hehe!!

2nd year is ending, leaving me with one more year before i graduate with a Bachelor degree in Arts. Hmm...so fast so fast...can't believe it. I'm growing up! How cool is that. You know what, i remember when i was younger i always wanted to be in uni or start working. Now as i approach that stage in life where it seems more real, i'd love to be back in high school.

I really miss my time in high school (PLMGP/SS)...all the frends i have, especially badminton buddies...man! I miss you gals...jeanette, ruth, rachel, melissa, amy, charmaine...remember how we battle on court? I just love the tournaments, where we bring out the best in each other. That fighting spirit of PL...e moments we cheer each other on when all seems to fail!

Greatest moment No. 1(Pri. Sch.): We (Ruth & I) were one set down and playing in the third set (decider set). Remember, Ruth? Mr. Kim brought both of us out and gave us a pap talk for like 5mins telling us all the strategies to win tis game? SO we played against...SCGS primary. If i've not mistaken...we were down 12 6. We had to catch up heaps in order to win...trying to keep our composure together...and at the back of us hearing Mr. Kim shouting, "C'mon Steady Now!" we manage to win one point after another....n finally we brought the game home!! YEAH!! We won the championships....yeah!! Miss those times man.

Greatest moment No. 2 (Sec. Sch.): This was a match against TKGS...i was playing a gal who was about the same stnd as me...pei shan, if i'm not wrong. She is so calm, so cool-headed...it seem like everything i throw to her in the first set, she was able to take it with ease. Quickly, the first set ran away from me. The second set...it was a bit different, i was calmer, found my rythm...played smart....n with ease took the second 11 3. Then came to the decider. Both of us were all gasping for air...tired, having played for 50min...it was a battle of the mind. Mr. Kim. always said...badminton is 5% strength and 95% mental. When the third set commenced...we played well...each of us gave a fair share of great and not so great shots. Then it came down to the last two points...we were both tied at 10 all...And miraculously, i won the decider 13 12. Yes!! I Did iT!

Oh well...felt a bit nostalgic to have to bring up thoses two great moments in my life...

Update on life

Sorry for the late update...i do realise its been almost 10 months since i wrote anything on tis blog. Reason being: i forgot my blog address...stupid rite...but yarh, getting old already. Anyway, jus to give u all who actually r reading my blog (can't see who will..but)...i'm still in Australia...but in less than 5 weeks, i'll be back in Singapore. Yeah!!

Tml i've got my first exam...organisational psychology...all the best to me! Tml nite will also be our Young Adults' last Encounter meeting for the year. Its a meeting young adults (18-25yrs) from church have once a month. Real cool stuff...at least that is wat i tink. But there are some who think otherwise. So i'm really looking forward to that.

Man, should i be studying right now...let me continue anyhow.

Life has been good...the past few months there were the occassional pitfalls...but throughout tis time in Australia...i've really learnt to grab on tight to wat i know is true...the truth of God's Word. Every time i feel like sh**... i've learnt to go back to God's Word...even though sometimes i dun feel like it. Jus amazing how sometimes, what u read is jus so wat u need to hear atm of loneliness and hurt.

I encourage you all to do the same...He sees your pain n understands what u r going through. Don't tink he is not watching over u. He is!!

There is More to Life

What an evening......i'm left thinking how life can seem so useless to some people. But how can it be? I mean we are all created for a purpose...whether u believe in God or not, there will always be meaning to life..not matter how bad life is atm.

Just found out tt a frend of mine (whom i hardly know) was thinking of committing suicide last nite. Just to hear him talk abt life n how it is really meaningless atm, n tt escaping from the physical world will solve all his problems...i feel so sad for him n for everyone who feels the same way.

Life seemed like an object to him...if u like it u keep it, if not, juz throw it out la..no big deal!

But its more than that..i tink. It is full of dreams, visions, memories (gd n bad)...ambitions. I mean, life is meant to be full of colour. Feel kind of lost atm...trying to get my head ard why someone would feel that life is meaningless...i guess i'll neva be able to understand it becoz i know how blessed n how wastful it is to treat life as n object.

I've got only one time to live...make the most of it...impact others so tt they can influences others. Grab every opportunity u are given..n count your blessings.

That's wat i tink. In the meantime, i pray so hard tt that frend of mine will come to realise how much potential his life holds. I'm praying for you Mitch! Give the BIG GUY a chance man. You'll be amazed...if only u'll let him!