ROLAND GARROS 2006

So here is where i take this time to share wif you something that i'm quite passionate about - TENNIS - in particular, my favourite player, Justine Henin-Hardenne. Was just telling a friend how much i've grown as a person because of the role model that Henin-Hardenne is. Anyway, Roland Garros starts today. Yeah!! I hope i hope they show it on SBS...even if it means staying up till 4am to watch it...i'm so gonna do that.

Here are just some pics which i like:

Justine's infamous one-handed backhand

Justine's powerful forehand

And how can anyone forget her win at Roland Garros 2005

In a nearly perfect performance, Belgium's Justine Henin-Hardenne won her second Roland Garros title by devastating France's Mary Pierce 6-1, 6-1 in the final on Saturday. Adeptly controlling the action from every angle on the court, Henin won her 24th straight match on clay behind a powerful serve, high variety backhand and a fearsome forehand. Let's see if she can repeat it this year! Go Ju Ju!!

Anyway...now i'll have to try n plan my sleeping hours and studying hours...so that i can catch the matches and still have time to study. Hahaha........One day, i'll go to Paris and watch her play on centre court. One day.....

PMS or AN ENCOUNTER WITH GOD?

Okay i'm a bit confused at the moment...i know this is something guys generally don't like to read about but i'm still gonna just say it anyway. Hehehehe....So here is the situation: i was in church today and errmmm....was participating in the worship session, although not as enthusiastic as usual becoz of the current busyness life entails. But anyway, everything was going fine and when it was time to hear the word...by Bishop Joseph Garlington...i was like, "cool some guy with an american accent, something different (although it would be even cooler if we could one day hear some hong kong pastor preach wif his honkie accent)".

Anyway, that's besides the point. Just before he told us to turn to the bible, like what preachers normally do before preaching....he start singing "Agnus Dei" and the congregation immediately responded to that. People were raising their voices and hands and immediately you could really sense that God was already there. It was real. Then suddenly i started crying. Why? I have no idea. Then he started singing this phrase "Amen, Amen means i've got it" and then he stopped and started talking about how God did the impossible becoz he (Garlington) took it to the Lord.

In a nutshell, one day his wife realize that they had no grocceries for the day and had no money to buy any. And He kinda laugh it out saying "Bless the Lord, Amen!" Then he told his wife to write down a list of items they needed. While his wife did that, he was desperately praying in the spirit. Next two ladies were outside his house holding groccery bags filled wif wateva that was written in that list.

So, normally i would take a while before something that was just said sinks in. But as i was hearing his testimony...i started crying again. And i was like "woah Cheryl, wassup wassup! Why are you being so emotional all of a sudden? PMS or what?" *hahahaha.....* as if i had enough crying moments in less than 1hr into the service...i began to cry again when he started singing this phrase "What's in my list is in the bag". Funny huh!!

I wasn't in one of those moods where everything is all going wrong and i'm feeling so depressed. I would like to think i'm doing fine at this moment, besides the fact that i'm experiencing exam stress that may be a bit overwhelming at times. Other than that, i think i'm doing fine. So i came home and i actually reflected on what happened in those few moments when i got so emotional over those small little things. And until now i still can't explain what just happened. Two possible explanation:

(1) PMS....hahaha..highly unlikely coz its not that time in the month for me yet. And errmm...i am usually pretty stable emotionally whether i have PMS or not. So yeah!

(2) I had an encounter with God during those little moments when Garlington was singing those simple words and when he shared his simple testimony. That was powerful. That was a moment i wished i could go back again.

I guess wat i want to drive at is that it is so awesome being in God's presence. How i wish i could just pause time and really stay in His presence forever. How can anyone not want to encounter God? Oh well...

Got something that you guys might wana check out: http://weareallprincesses.blogspot.com. Just something about getting off that lazy bum of yours and doing something different in respond to what God wants to bring to this generation. Have a good one!

Cheryl

CAR, SOCCER and X-MEN3

Its now 2am Melbourne time.....and i've got heaps to tell but nothing much to tell too....wat!! So tonite was the soccer match, Australia vs Greece. 1-0. I thought Australia would have done better...although i muz say, they started very well in the first half, forcing Greece to really defend well. Watched the first half and then went out wif a special significant someone....

Was suppose to watch the second half at the Irish Pub...but we end up watching X-Men 3. That movie was cool. Oh i've never seen the cinema so packed before. THe last time i went to Knox's village...there were only 4 people. Anyway...X-men...i'll give it 4 popcorns. Hehe....

Then after that...we decided to pop over to the Irish Pub for a drink. No i dun drink...lemon lime n bitter...that is as far as i go. Why do people like to drink alcohol anyway...it is so yucky yucks yucks!! The Irish Pub, i like it....its not doggy...not too crowdy...just nice. And the life music was cool too....loved it. Spent abt 45min there..n then decided to leave coz there were 1 or 2 unwanted attention passing our way...hehe...so yup yup.

Okay this is the best part. Everyone...i am proud to say that "Cheryl has officially driven on Melbourne's strees". I drove back from Knox to Scoresby. Oh my gosh....how scary was that experience. It started out all right...driving past coffeeclub...then went to blockbuster to drop of a tape. Then when i was about to hit the main roads...i was like "oh S***, oh S***...are u sure u want me to drive??" And when i did...a policecar had to drive pass us. Fortunately...by the grace of God...we didn't get stopped...if not i'll so be pissing on my pants!! As u realize...i'm still really excited that i drove home. Argh!!....i drove home, w/o crashing or getting honk at. Maybe it was becoz it was like 1:30am. Hahaha...but still....

Anywya, wat else...i guess that is the highlight of the week...i'm sure more has happened..but atm i'm still kinda shocked at the fact that I DROVE HOME!! Yeah!! Dear Lord, thank you for not letting me crash. Amen!!

-Cheryl-

JESUS TAKE THE WHEEL

Currently...i've got too much on my mind. Argghh!! Exam preparations are just really getting to me. To make things worse, lets just say some life lessons are meant to be painful and so very tough. Therefore, I do apologise in advance to whoever i will ignored or act out-of-sorts from now till the end of exams...and past that *i noe tis is kinda stupid but yeah...sorry*

Right now it feels so difficult to be me. I'm sure i'm not the only one. Sometimes i wish i was smarter so that i dun have to struggle that much in uni...sometimes i wish i was less aware of my emotions, then maybe i could get away with trying to figure out why i feel the way i feel...*ironic, psychology is my major*...sometimes i wish i was less of a girl..than i wouldn't allow my emotions to overwhelm me sometimes. Hahaha...nah nah, i might take that back.

sometimes i wish i could just stop time, take a breath of fresh air and ask God why is this happening to me at the age of 19? I'm still young and naive...i still want to be young and naive...and careless about what's going on around me...and just have fun with life. Not care about my future for just one second...be a little childish n i dunnoe...do something i wouldn't normally do...like say stupid stuff to a significant other n not be afraid of how they would react. Why does life have to be so complicated as we grow older? Why can't we just live life like a child..and be forever young...hahaha??

Maybe i'm saying that becoz i had a deprive childhood...funny how some tell me this: "Cheryl, you are growing way faster than everyone else...hahaha...slow down!" Maybe i am...just slightly over my head...n maybe i am starting to loose grip. Maybe i can't hide it anymore becoz it is too overwhelming....

-Cheryl-

Jesus take the wheel,

take it from my hand

coz i can't do this on my own

i'm letting go,

so give me one more chance

save me from this road i'm on

Jesus take the wheel

NO SONG TITLE

Hey guys...i know its been a while since i posted my last entry. Can't help it, its the time of the year where uni students dread. Hahaha...assignments and exam preparations. Argghh...so i guess if i ever do post anything in the next few weeks...it wld be this:

Know how it feels when you are just in the zone with God..hope you guys enjoy this, as much as i did writing it. Not trying to boast...not like the songs are very annoited anyway...but yeah if u tink its good..its becoz of Him...hope you enjoy the songs that will be posted up in the next few weeks. (this song..haven't thought of a title yet..any suggestion?)

Be blessed.

-Cheryl-

we come to you today
to bring a song of praise to you
we want to see your face
lifted high above all names

here in our lives you dwell
one voice your people shouting out
not ours but yours be done
lift him up above all else

let your glory fall in our hearts

in our homes, in our streets
that all may know
of your wonderous works
for you are god

come and behold him
nations resounding
to give you praise
angels rejocing
all heavens declaring
that you are king

you are king, o Lord

DRAW NEAR TO HIM AND HE WILL DRAW NEAR TO YOU

Its been too long since i actually set aside time to spend alone time with God. Call my religious or too holy but I use to spend heaps of alone time with Him. This semester has just been too hectic. I guess it came to a point where i had to ask myself, why am i putting so much energy on something that would probably not last? And so i decided to just give myself a break off assignmnets and presentations and just really go back to Him.

I'm glad i did just that. It was amazing. You know how the bible says "when two or more are gathered in His name, He is there"...well, noone was in my room this morning but i sure felt God. Sounds really stupid to some of you, but what i'd normally do is crank up the stereo and just soak in His presence and worship Him. Man, it has been too too long since i felt that closeness with God.

From the moment of the first song, I just started crying. It was just weird, but i knew that it was not some psychotic-stressed-induced response...but a real touch from God. I felt His arm just going around me saying "I'm right here...you are all right." and then He smiled at me. This is a moment where i wished never ended. It was like i was a kid once more...back into the arms of my first love. Just reliving it as i write makes me emotional again. Hmmm....*girls!!* Hehehe.....

Anyway, just 2years ago this was wat God said to me "...so many times i have sat back and sadly watched you go your own way. Only to watch you return to my arms sad and broken. And now you are mine."

Just thought that God wanted to remind me how much He wants me...and like what John Bevere said, and James too..."Draw near to Him and He will draw near to you" (James4:8). And that was what i did.

Cheryl

DISOWNED DESIRE P2

Strong desires make strong prayers......there can be no true praying without desire.

Strong desire...why are we so afraid to own them? Why do we pretend that we're doing fine, that we don't need a thing? Sometimes i wonder: life isn't going the way i want it to be, and i know that God could have handled the situation differently. Yet i am afraid to ask God for what my heart truly desires?

We hide our true desire and call it maturity. How often we come to God with simple requests (ie. Lord, please bless mum and dad....or Lord, please let me score HD for my exams). Somehow, we don't allow ourselves to feel how desperate our situation truly is. We sense that our desire will undo us if we let it rise up in all its fullness. Wouldn't it be better to bury the diasppointment and the yearning and just get on with life?

Currently, the decision to stay in Australia or go back to Singapore has been wearing me down. So much to consider, yet the question boils down to What do you really want? Should i make a decision base on what i know is right or should i for once make a decision base on want my desire wants?