DISOWNED DESIRE P2

Strong desires make strong prayers......there can be no true praying without desire.

Strong desire...why are we so afraid to own them? Why do we pretend that we're doing fine, that we don't need a thing? Sometimes i wonder: life isn't going the way i want it to be, and i know that God could have handled the situation differently. Yet i am afraid to ask God for what my heart truly desires?

We hide our true desire and call it maturity. How often we come to God with simple requests (ie. Lord, please bless mum and dad....or Lord, please let me score HD for my exams). Somehow, we don't allow ourselves to feel how desperate our situation truly is. We sense that our desire will undo us if we let it rise up in all its fullness. Wouldn't it be better to bury the diasppointment and the yearning and just get on with life?

Currently, the decision to stay in Australia or go back to Singapore has been wearing me down. So much to consider, yet the question boils down to What do you really want? Should i make a decision base on what i know is right or should i for once make a decision base on want my desire wants?